I have been trying to post lately but have found it ... difficult. I usually, before Anna had these latest difficulties, started with discussing training. I was trying to keep mind preoccupied this morning during my 10 mile run - i noticed that runners are illogically nice to each other. They always, always, always greet each other with a 'hi!" or "good morning" between their gasps ... gotta be some sort of masochistic bond.

But it all feels rather insignificant and useless. It could be that Anna will never leave the hospital now. It seems unlikely. I guess it's never enough - I remember praying for her to please be here to go on a real family vacation with her family this summer. Then I prayed that she would just get to start kindergarten, now I pray for more. It's not enough when you have to pray for a five year old to make it to this or that, not even daring to pray that they make it to six.